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Thursday, October 29, 2009.
. CHURCH is church supposed to be a very ideal and perfect place? i think, no. where there are people, there will be imperfection. i cant stand it when others just see things from the surface and think, " oh as long as it has something to do with God, it'll be perfect!" ugh. i've been struggling so much should i go or not? what's keeping me is just the fact that i've grown up there, and that church is only 6 min away from home. school's been quite fun lately with rocs meetings. i cant and can wait for 10th nov! cant wait: EUROPE! MOZART AND BEETHOVEN! i'll see where you lie! can wait: shucks... o level chinese. how great is that i hope i dont over/under pack. i hope i wont fall sick there. i hope i'll enjoy my time there with my friends! i hope i wont get distracted during the exam. ahhah! i'm like watching mickey mouse clubhouse at the same time.(: i've learnt so much from ppl this year. this year flew past so fast. one day, someone took a piece of scrap paper out of michelle's wallet. and then she asked, why isnt my name there?! hahah. i was so scared. so i just said ... oh that's just nonsense. but that was actually mine and michelle's kiddy bestfriend list. PHEW. i think i live in the past. I'm a bittergourd!(; Tuesday, October 20, 2009.
. The world's coming to an end. Do you believe God is coming? Do you believe that it is possible God will come when you're still alive? Or are you just simply brushing it aside NAH, come on, he hasn't come in 2009 years, why would he come tmr, or maybe even in my lifetime? I admit i'm really afraid. I've not been good enough. I'll never be good enough. I'll try though. And I hope you will, too. HAHAHAH I just said Karyn din have a life before today and she said "YOU ARE SOOOO DEAD TOMORROW!!!" piupiupiupiupiu i'll shoot you down before you can kill me karyn tan! i've been getting headaches over packing for the Europe trip. we're only allowed a 24" luggage for a 10-day trip...): noooo. i'm gonna be very very dirty and disgusting and probably bring only about 2-3 jeans. yikes i'm quitting something that is really important in my life. i'm so sad i can't let it go. should i let it go? i think music's soooooo wonderful. everytime i'm sad/angry/disgusted/impatient, it'll just calm me down. wonderfullllllllllllllllllllllll (: it's so sweetttttt. i love Classical music. I think my mood changes so fast. I feel betrayed. betrayed by someone whom i dun really know. but i din expect her to intrude into my privacy! how could she. i actually already forgot what i went through in obs but she made me uproot all those hard feelings once again. i.cant.stand.it. sometimes i think i'm living in a world of self denial. anyways, i'm leaving now. wonder when He'll come for me, and for thr rest. Tuesday, August 18, 2009.
. i've deleted all my previous posts(: i think i'm fated with the hospital. been going there so many times this year. hope i wont have to go there as many times next year. not going to school is really killing me cause i dun have anything to do when everyone's in school): from my hospital stays, i've found out which friends are worth to be kept for life and which are meant to stay as mere acquaintances. cant wait for the rocs3 trip at the end of the year! hope i'll really get to see Mozart's grave. but i wish i'll be able to bunk with Charlotte cause she doesnt have anyone to bunk with. i want to go out and breath in some fresh air. i wanna watch UP and 吓到笑. it's been millions of years ago since i've caught a movie and i think i should really take a break from my hectic life and go ahead and watch movies. now every time i talk about movies i think about F451. will our ppl be like that in future? there are many symptoms already. but, i think it's kind of impossible for ppl not to voice out their opinions in this present-day society so maybe, maybe our society wont be as disastrous. when you're looking to win, you're really only looking to lose. |